Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Taking a big step of faith

It's been awhile, hasn't it. The last time I posted I was just coming off of a trip to WA for the holidays and tonight I realized that it's been almost exactly one month since my last post.
A lot has been going on but tonight I'm going to focus on one thing in particular...tomorrow.

You know that I've written a book about our journey with Grant's bi-polar and how it has impacted our marriage and our daily lives. Tomorrow I get to be the guest on www.webtv4women.com and will be talking at length about our book and how God intervened during this season of our lives. It's tough stuff to be sure, but at the same time I'm just amazed at how we have gotten to this place. Surely it would never have happened if God had not carried us.

I'm humbled to have been brought to a place of renewed balance and happiness in my daily life and in my relationship with Grant. There was indeed a time that I never could have imagined that we would ever get here again, and to be honest, we are happier than we've ever been. Because of our journey...we are stronger, more honest and more balanced than ever. It's not been easy but we've managed somehow to stay committed, to stay open and to trust that God's got a plan and a purpose for our struggles.

Tomorrow I'm going to take the first step in promoting our book and hope that God will touch the hearts of those who hear, and protect us from those who would decide it's better to judge in their misunderstanding and confusion. I'm certain that there will be many who think it would be better for us to just keep quiet, to remain an enigma in the midst of many who are suffering, but that is not our heart, and certainly not our motive.

I'm also certain that God will prevail and that the truth of this statement whispered to me by a very dear friend will come to fruition not just for me but for many who are walking a similar path, "It is for this specific challenge that you have been equipped." Do you hear that? That's the truth shattering the voice of doubt, the voice of uncertainty and the voice that tells each and every one of us to keep quiet believing that our story isn't important and has no value or purpose. There is nothing that is impossible with God on our side. My marriage and my husbands renewed life is a perfect example of this very truth.

Regardless of whether you have a spouse with bi-polar, a drug addiction or perhaps have discoverd infidelity...you my friend have a purpose, a plan and a specific destiny that is unique to you. In spite of the fact that you might feel ill equipped to embrace it today, don't make the mistake of ignoring the prompting in your heart. Life is too short to over look the meaning and the idea that you could indeed, leave a legacy that is valuable and insightful for the generations that follow.
Our hope as we share our story is that hearts would be stirred, hopes would be rediscovered, and lives and marriages would be saved. We know it's challenging and that sometimes it feels like it would be so much easier to have given up...but I can tell you without a shadow of a doubt, where we are today is far worth the battle scars that we carry with us into our present.

If you want to listen in log in tomorrow at 12pm Central time to www.webtv4women.com. I look forward to it.
Blessings to you all!